:: LoVeLeSs hEaRt ::

To me it was so perfect, to me it was going fine,
i never thought i'd lose you, i thought you'd always be mine.
How come i never noticed, how come i couldn't see,
that you were changing your mind, the way you felt about me.

We could work it out, we could talk it through,
but you left it so long, there was only one thing you could do.
You tried to tell me nicely, you tried to ask me if i'd cry,
but my heart just tore apart, as i let out a sigh.

We hugged for the last time, and i didn't wanna let go,
but i finally pulled away as i told myself no!
i held in my tears i began to walk away,
when people asked what happened, i had nothing else to say,

except "ï wanna be alone, and i don't wanna talk,"
so i went into the darkness, and went for a little walk.
i decided to sit down, as i felt my eyes go red,
i gazed at the floor, in my hands i held my head.

The tears poured down my face, as i asked myself why,
why did it happened?, why did she lied?
I didn't wanna believe it, yet i knew it was so true,
that we were definitely over, that you and i were through,

I still can't believe, you expected me to guess,
though all i need was u, coz u are the best
but now i had no idea, i was totally clueless,
Maybe it's just me, well I am loveless...

:: tHe OnLy eXcEpTiOn ::

Have you guys ever heard of this song? It was quite a beautiful song the first time I listened to it.. I dedicated this song to "sOMeOnE", and she loves it~ Knowing her, I believe that she's not as jiwang philosophical as me. I wonder whether she really understands the meaning behind this song..

This song is about a girl who's parents having a massive problem in their marriage relationship, like to fight a lot, messing with their lives. Ever since then, the girl believes that all relationships will never last forever, and it even makes her stop questioning whether TRUE LOVE really exists because she's no longer believe in love AT ALL.

Until the moment she meets a guy, she has fallen for him, but even then she still thinks that he's gonna leave her someday.

"I know you're leaving in the morning when you wake up
Leave me of some kind of proof it's not a dream"

But in the end when she still has him, even though she may think it's not worth risking getting her heart broken,

"And up until now, I had sworn to myself
That I'm content with loneliness
Because none of it was ever worth the risk"

She's slowly starting to believe that not all relationships end in heartbreak and that he's the one for her, a guy who actually gives her more than enough reasons to believe that love does exist, together with the courage to love... and to be loved.

"And I'm on my way to believe it..
Oh, and I'm on my way to believe it..."

...........

Well, it's hard for someone who has been living this way ever since she was just a child, to accept the fact that true love really exists. She might see it, she might feel it, but she will never accept it, not until she opens her heart to love with everything that she has. Then only she'll understand, in love, the more you give, the more that you will get.

:: dOa BuAt KeKaSiH ::

Ya Allah, yang Maha Pemurah... yang Maha Pengampun

Terima kasih kerana Engkau telah menciptakan dia
dan mempertemukan aku dengannya.

Terima kasih untuk saat-saat indah
yang dapat kami nikmati bersama.

Terima kasih untuk setiap pertemuan
yang dapat kami lalui bersama.

Kini kau memberikan ujian keatasku Ya Allah,
Aku datang bersujud dihadapanMu...Ya Rabbi Ya Tuhan kami

Ya Allah, jika aku bukan pemilik tulang rusuknya,
janganlah biarkan aku merindukan kehadirannya...
tapi kenapa setiap detik, setiap saat, setiap malam, setiap hari
Kau menghadirkan dirinya dalam ruang mindaku?

Aku sentiasa mengerti, tidak akan pernah ada pertemuan
Dan tidak akan wujud kata-kata cinta antara kami,
melainkan kerana kehendakMu.

Janganlah biarkan aku, melabuhkan hati aku dihatinya...
kikislah pesonanya dari pelupuk mataku
dan jauhkan dia dari relung hati aku...
kalau sekiranya aku bukanlah jodohnya Ya Allah..


Tetapi jika Engkau ciptakan dia untuk aku Ya Allah,
satukanlah hati kami,
satukanlah jiwa dan perasaan kami,
satukanlah cinta kami,
bantulah aku untuk mencintai,
mengerti dan menerima dia seadanya,
dengan sabar dan apa ada padanya.
sesuai janji kami semuanya hanya ku persembahkan hanya untukMu Ya Allah.

Berikanlah aku kesabaran, ketekunan dan kesungguhan untuk memenangkan hatinya...

Redhailah dia,
agar dia juga mencintai, mengerti, dan mahu menerimaku
dengan segala kelebihan dan kekurangan aku
sebagaimana telah Engkau ciptakan...

Yakinkanlah dia bahwa aku sungguh-sungguh mencintainya
dan rela membahagikan suka dan dukaku dengannya...

Ya Allah, Yang Maha Pengasih, dengarkanlah doaku ini,
Lepaskanlah aku dari keraguan ini menurut kasih dan kehendakMU...

Allah yang Maha kekal, aku mengerti bahawa Engkau sentiasa
memberikan yang terbaik untuk aku...
luka dan keraguan yang aku alami, pasti ada hikmahnya.

Pertemuan ku dengannya mengajarkan aku
untuk hidup makin dekat kepadaMU
untuk lebih peka terhadap suaraMu
yang membimbing aku menuju terangMu...

Ajarkan aku untuk tetap setia dan sabar menanti tibanya waktu
yang telah Engkau tentukan....

Jadikanlah kehendakMu dan bukan kehendakku yang menjadi dalam setiap
bahagian hidupku Ya Allah...

Ya Allah,
Engkaulah Yang Maha Pengasih,
Yang Maha Mendengar,
Yang Maha Mengetahui..

Semoga Engkau mengabulkan doaku ini Ya Allah..

Amin Ya Rabbal A’lamin...

:: FeeLiNgs ::